I cried, I bled, I slipped

i tried holding on to everything that we had, and you tried everything to let go..
i ask myself, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO US?
but it's better if I say, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME?
i dunno whats wrong with me?and what's wrong with you?
did we have to hurt each other and make each other even more certain that we are still feeling..
or is hurting me made you realized that am still alive and am still HUMAN...

is it fun SEEING ME THIS WAY..
did you have to leave me transparently lifeless..
did you have to make me feel that am worthless..
i know you know how i feel...
i know you see me as your burden..
i know you chose to hurt me because I WAS WORTHLESS ALREADY

I KNOW YOU KNOW YOUR POWER OVER ME...
i know you made your way on using that as your main alibi..

you didnt have to slap me right there and then with such realities that i refuse to believe in..
because in my mind i lead a chimera life with you....

and now, all i have is this...

i'm lifeless, i'm in total monochrome, am motionless, am a creature that doesnt obey life and natures law anymore..am living a timeless, motionless, airless, waterless, colorless and worthless life..


and now I CRY, I BLEED, I SLIP

and i dont know when will these end..